tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-35672262011-04-21T14:33:28.940-04:00this ain't prettyjournal o' writing, webbing, living, and so on and so forth.Ashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08256951025585113820noreply@blogger.comBlogger3021100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3567226.post-1057039727422751312003-07-01T02:08:00.000-04:002003-07-01T08:08:06.420-04:00Hm.
I actually have a good-sized update on recent things for here, but every time I go to publish, I get a message that says BIG POST ERROR. I'm not sure if the "BIG" is used as an adjective to describe "POST", or an adverb to describe "ERROR". If it's the former, it'll show you just how big that post is, eh? *frowns* To make a long story short, a lot of really "BIG" stuff has happened in my Ashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08256951025585113820noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3567226.post-953395422003-06-05T15:27:00.000-04:002003-06-05T15:45:48.000-04:00Auf Wiedersehen
All right, here's the deal. Stuff's gotten really icky with me lately - not my life, I want everyone to know it's not a "my life sucks, so I'm copping out and running away" kind of deal. This time, it's just me. Something's up with me, and I need some serious downtime to straighten it out. I've been keeping a game face on as much as I could, trying to do what I can for everyone Ashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08256951025585113820noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3567226.post-953348022003-06-05T13:22:00.000-04:002003-06-05T13:27:34.000-04:00my suggestion is to keep your distance, 'cause right now i'm dangerous
*eyes the imood indicator* they need one for "demoralized" with a little would-be smiley snorting and rolling his eyes. *nods* they really do.
i'm so fed up with my damned job right now that i'm not going in today. yes, i've been ill all morning, repeatedly, in the ewwy fashion, but still. i called in, got no super, Ashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08256951025585113820noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3567226.post-951969772003-06-02T12:26:00.000-04:002003-06-02T12:26:40.500-04:00Hunter/Jumper
What Type of Rider Are You? brought to you by Quizilla
You are the beautiful Andalusian. Full of Life andSpirit you are strong and agile, capable ofanything you put your mind to.
What Breed of Horse are You? brought to you by Quizilla
What's your rider stereotype? Find out!
yeah, yeah, yeah, i show jumped for years. but what i really wanted to do the whole time was Ashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08256951025585113820noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3567226.post-951534192003-06-01T10:41:00.000-04:002003-06-01T10:41:21.336-04:00i got up twenty minutes ago. i was actually gonna write. but right now, i don't know why i even bother getting the fuck up. *is just so...cripes* *rubs her eyes and works on not crawling back into bed* Ashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08256951025585113820noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3567226.post-951371102003-05-31T21:41:00.000-04:002003-05-31T21:41:49.260-04:00been thinkin' a lot today
i thought about the army.
seems i spend most my time very alone now. which didn't bother me a lot until i realized it just now. huh. i'm very much alone. i'm alone in the huge house, save for spot, who's been wonderful to just stick beside me wherever i go, and i'm feeling extraordinarily disconnected from my friends and family these days. i don't much like it, but iAshhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08256951025585113820noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3567226.post-950846872003-05-30T11:49:00.000-04:002003-05-30T11:49:22.456-04:00put on a happy face (god dammit)
whatever relief from my inexplicable depression (ID) i'd gotten yesterday and the day before is gone. the ID is back with a vengeance, and making me miserable. it's been a constant effort to not cry, not curl up in a ball, not hide, not run away today. *doesn't know what the fuck is wrong with her* there's this little voice inside me saying, "nesting instinct, Ashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08256951025585113820noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3567226.post-950637972003-05-29T23:31:00.000-04:002003-05-29T23:31:38.766-04:00pajama party tomorrow
flannel pj's with bright yellow smiley faces all over it. and socks to match. yes. that's my wardrobe for the morrow. and movies and popcorn and nail painting and hair braiding and storytelling and all that fun stuff. *nods*
i love my dog. i didn't think i'd ever enjoy having a dog, but man, he's quite sweet. *hugs 'im* all he wants out of life is to be near people. Ashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08256951025585113820noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3567226.post-950434952003-05-29T14:02:00.000-04:002003-05-29T14:06:11.000-04:00humbug.
guess who gets to work 'til closing tonight? yep, that'd be yours truly. *is rather unhappy about it* but hey, a few extra hours of pay is a good thing. *nods some* still. humbug.
on the plus side, our shower heads are good things. *nods sagely* jack likes a nice misty kind of shower, and i like a hard pulse. *pauses, then snickers and shakes her head* our shower heads are adjustableAshhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08256951025585113820noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3567226.post-950379462003-05-29T11:49:00.000-04:002003-05-29T11:49:35.066-04:00i got this email last night
and i thought it might be of interest to my union/nv-y friends:
Advance word and images of The Big House: Auburn, The History Channel (THC) 1-hour documentary premiering 11 P.M. EST Thursday, May 29th, 2003. The NYCHS preview page, featuring 50 images including an animation, is at http://www.correctionhistory.org/auburn&osborne/bighouse/histchn2.html
Which Ashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08256951025585113820noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3567226.post-949907742003-05-28T10:49:00.000-04:002003-05-28T10:54:04.000-04:00snatched from daph, who snatched from meg, possibly?
One - Basics
Name: Elizabeth
Current Location: Youngstown's North Side, right off Fifth Avenue
Eye Color: Blue and gray
Hair Color: Blonde
Righty or Lefty: Righty, even though just about my whole family can do the ambidextrous thing pretty easily. Family of artists, what can I say?
Zodiac Sign: Sagittarius. I'm all about change and fire Ashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08256951025585113820noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3567226.post-949676282003-05-27T22:02:00.000-04:002003-05-27T22:02:00.963-04:00hm.
i'm home alone, listening to bocelli's version of "la boheme" over and over again. it's raining heavily outside. i have a window open up here in the attic. it's pitch black in my office - my computer's in jack's right now, so there's no monitor light fouling up the blackness. it's all gothic and enormous and thick and rich and i really like it.Ashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08256951025585113820noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3567226.post-948585482003-05-25T09:13:00.000-04:002003-05-25T09:13:48.466-04:00okay, fine
westlife's version of "more than words" is really cute. *waves a hand* my sister had that song at her wedding. *nods*
chris and katie came over for a bit yesterday. i unpacked a bit. got our fridge finally. our memorial day weekend is like, The Big Celebration around our house. we watch war movies friday, saturday, sunday and that monday. last night was saving private ryan. Ashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08256951025585113820noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3567226.post-948407832003-05-24T18:47:00.000-04:002003-05-24T18:47:50.020-04:00Results... You are whipcunt!You are sassy and careless.Mostpeople think you're a bitch but obviously youdon't give a shit what other people think ofyou.You're certainly not afraid to kick someass..A true bad ass..Good for you!
Which Gothic Powerpuff Girl Are You? brought to you by QuizillaAshhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08256951025585113820noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3567226.post-948368902003-05-24T15:59:00.000-04:002003-05-24T15:59:16.600-04:00oh, dear LordAshhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08256951025585113820noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3567226.post-947668942003-05-22T22:47:00.000-04:002003-05-22T22:47:23.273-04:00mmmmmwood
tonight, jack pulled up the carpet in the foyer. we're going to be adding the runners, so...yeah. most nights are filled with home improvementing these days, so i apologize for my lateness of onness. *grins* but mmmhardwoodfloors. *pokes carpet in stupid places and goes to work*Ashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08256951025585113820noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3567226.post-946665822003-05-20T23:24:00.000-04:002003-05-21T00:19:45.000-04:00*eyes stuff*
as for buffy, good enough for me, save the anya thing. the anya thing, how people reacted to it, bugs the hell out me. *was nearly in tears for her* and 24? the way jack was reaching out to kim the second he laid eyes on her, and smiling so heavily and all, shoot, much tearage there.
'course, the dog was asleep and having the funnies doggie dreams during 24. *coughs* barking and Ashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08256951025585113820noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3567226.post-945609742003-05-18T23:06:00.000-04:002003-05-18T23:06:12.756-04:00this house is fucking huge
i actually found a room i didn't know was here yesterday. this house is so fucking big. *is floored at how effing big this house is* Ashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08256951025585113820noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3567226.post-944858772003-05-17T00:49:00.000-04:002003-05-17T00:49:23.253-04:00last official post before the move
*coughs* got my puppy Spot-who-is-being-called-Spotter today, as well as my new computer. *is rather happy about both* and tomorrow's gonna be long and starting early, so...yeah. i'm goin'. *grins* i may be incommunicado for a day or so, but hopefully no longer than that. *knocks on wood*
see you from my northside home!Ashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08256951025585113820noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3567226.post-944182582003-05-15T19:46:00.000-04:002003-05-15T19:46:14.116-04:00*whines*
bree sharp's doing a concert next wednesday in soho. recording a live album, even. *wants to gooooo*
now, sleep. then, packing. thenthen, hanging with my girls, hopefully. *nods* Ashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08256951025585113820noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3567226.post-944156692003-05-15T18:45:00.000-04:002003-05-15T18:45:43.206-04:00mmm. that-time-of-the-month grouchiness ahead. beware
i have a nice black eye from stupidfuckingstupiddumb charles' tantrum today. his mom left and he just went berserk. usually he whines and cries, but he was screaming and throwing himself on the floor hard, so i was physically having to restrain him, right? fuckinghell. he throws his head back against me and nearly busts my cheekbone in two. Ashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08256951025585113820noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3567226.post-942715362003-05-13T11:59:00.000-04:002003-05-13T11:59:19.770-04:00um...
okay, i'm mildly weirded out. i have over 3500 songs on my wmp, right? and what songs are in succession? toad the wet sprocket's "hobbit on the rocks", followed immediately by "my precious" by lifehouse. i think God's trying to tell me to go see the two towers again. *nods sagely*Ashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08256951025585113820noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3567226.post-942661412003-05-13T10:30:00.000-04:002003-05-13T10:30:05.666-04:00adrienne's so cool
*models her new t-shirt* she went to new york saturday and picked up a shirt for me. *points out the brooklyn bridge* she's so cool. *hugs her lots*
they brought her cousin dan with them, and my younger in-laws were here, too. good times, good times. *nods vapidly, like the npr ladies* we're probably gonna hang with 'em on friday morning, too, so yay. k&k are coming over Ashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08256951025585113820noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3567226.post-942304542003-05-12T18:52:00.000-04:002003-05-12T18:52:46.480-04:00"you bastard! you wrote on my car! waaawaaawaaawaaahhhh!"
-kevin's message on jack's cell.
today's been a hell of a day. i've just been in this grrrrrr mood ever since i woke up. *shakes her head* you have no idea. on the way to work, everything made me want to just go and gut it. *was so...grrr, even!* work was relatively quiet, though. cheryl did make me laugh, and i found out camille's Ashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08256951025585113820noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3567226.post-942102502003-05-12T12:21:00.000-04:002003-05-12T12:21:52.870-04:00grr. arg.
yes, i want a $669.00 grandfather clock. no, i will never, ever, ever be able to justify spending even a percentage of it to myself, even if i had that kind of cash to throw around.
i must have a seriously sick subconcious. *dreamt some pretty fucked up stuff last night, man* i woke up wondering how the hell i was gonna right what i'd done, and i realized so gratefully i hadn't Ashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08256951025585113820noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3567226.post-941851812003-05-12T00:53:00.000-04:002003-05-12T00:53:21.516-04:00five days 'til the move
and so damn much to do before then. eesh.
adrienne and adam got into town tonight. we're doing lunch with them tomorrow, and may hang with them tomorrow night. *nods some* worst week of the year for them to come a'callin' from colorado, man. *was like, ehhhhhghhh* but i miss adrienne, so hey. *smiles tiredly*
*pauses to hug daze for cheering her up* and cahill forAshhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08256951025585113820noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3567226.post-941542702003-05-11T12:45:00.000-04:002003-05-11T12:45:49.953-04:00i have entirely too many books
not counting the reference-type books, i've only cleared off two bookcases, not even entirely, and been indexing them. the count is up to 445. i still have another bookcase to go, plus books at grandpa lawrence's and my parents'. and i want more. and i've been happily surprised at how many of them i've actually read, you know? considering i haven't been doing Ashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08256951025585113820noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3567226.post-941112802003-05-10T13:22:00.000-04:002003-05-10T13:23:36.000-04:00mmmstuff
i just ordered this bedset for melissa's new room:
Ashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08256951025585113820noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3567226.post-941106242003-05-10T13:05:00.000-04:002003-05-10T13:05:20.786-04:00"quality begins with me! yay!"
-melissa
bigass electrical storm last night. i kept thinking the lightning was hitting the street outside. boom. i love a good electrical storm and all, but as i was watching it from bed, i realized i was shaking. eh. uncool.
work's not been bad this week. state inspections happened, stuff was relatively cool, i got no negative comments. that was good. i likeAshhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08256951025585113820noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3567226.post-940834052003-05-09T21:25:00.000-04:002003-05-09T21:25:02.266-04:00hey, you!
yeah, you. the one who started all this. lissen up. you are not the victim! this wasn't a one-time deal, this has been over and over again since we started. you make up reasons to bitch and be in an uproar, and it's really, really annoying. again i say you are not the victim. not claiming to be it, either, but damn. geez. just stop making things worse. this wound is healing, and you Ashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08256951025585113820noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3567226.post-939846092003-05-08T07:46:00.000-04:002003-05-08T07:46:44.360-04:00Why is there a one-armed corpse with a tea cosy on his head in the boot of your car?
needless to say, i've had a lot on my mind. and soon, very soon, you will hear all of it, uncensored. i am going to go into the harsh truth about a few people, and i'm going to explain to everyone the real chronology of brooklyn, and what's led up to this shift. yes, i'm going to make a big deal out of certain Ashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08256951025585113820noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3567226.post-939057592003-05-06T23:45:00.000-04:002003-05-06T23:45:44.126-04:00new use for my colt:
killing off characters, execution-style. *evil, evil smirk* i haven't kil't a character in a good long while. it's about time. Ashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08256951025585113820noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3567226.post-939019722003-05-06T22:37:00.000-04:002003-05-06T22:37:33.086-04:00you know what?
i'm utterly at peace with this decision. this decision actually makes me happy.Ashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08256951025585113820noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3567226.post-936031452003-05-01T12:47:00.000-04:002003-05-01T12:49:04.000-04:00in conversation with jack:
as he's looking for a pre-ban assault rifle
ash: maybe dave'll just will you his when he dies
jack: that kind of thing usually goes to the son, hon
ash: his son's a hairdresser.
*has her points, thank you*
and yesterday peaches took it upon herself to tell me i have two eggs in my tummy, and i'm going to have two girls, and i'm to name them ashley and Ashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08256951025585113820noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3567226.post-936027042003-05-01T12:39:00.000-04:002003-05-01T12:39:21.480-04:00*pokes her email*
it's so weird to be here at 12:30 and not be playing hookie. *and pokes her email again* just send and receive, darnit! *bobs around to "more than watchmen" by rsj and goes to like, get dressed or something equally as...noteworthy.Ashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08256951025585113820noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3567226.post-935690632003-04-30T22:21:00.000-04:002003-04-30T22:21:46.223-04:0016.4 days 'til our move
yep, that's right. sixteen days, as of tomorrow at 10:00 am, we'll be taking over that sweet house. *smirks wickedly* we have thirteen days after that to get out of here, so that's awesome. particularly 'cause jack's been awesome and has easily a third of our stuff packed already. *came home and was like, whoa*
extra long day today. at least for me it was. *nods some*Ashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08256951025585113820noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3567226.post-934909562003-04-29T17:56:00.000-04:002003-04-29T17:58:34.000-04:00You have undertaken to cheat me. I won't sue you, for the law is too slow. I'll ruin you.
- Cornelius Vanderbilt
*really doesn't know why she bothers anymore*
work was okay. longish, as i had to stay over 'cause tonya was who-the-fuck-knows-where and camille's meeting ran over. *wasn't upset about it, though* i ended up with the toddlers and three of my kids when kysha left. one of the Ashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08256951025585113820noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3567226.post-934650562003-04-29T09:55:00.000-04:002003-04-29T09:55:58.160-04:00dude!
the chick who plays evilsnarkybitchcarrie on 24 was on dawson's creek. *never watches the show regularly, and just turned it on, and boom* there was carrie. *pats her, then cuffs her and sends her to be nina's prisonmate* *coughs*
nice day ahead of me. it's getting sunnier. started the coral calcium thing this morning. we'll see how it goes. *nods* goin' over to kevin and kimmy's afterAshhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08256951025585113820noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3567226.post-934499002003-04-29T02:15:00.000-04:002003-04-29T02:15:17.600-04:00ash investigations: we help the helpless
got this email just now:
Subject: RYKERS ISLAND PRISON INFO
TO WHO IT MAY CONCERN,
I DONT KNOW IF YOU CAN HELP ME, IM LOOKING FOR MY BROTHER NAME THOMAS PULIZZI HE IS A INMATE PRISON CORRECTIONAL OFFICER IN QUEENS, I TRYED TO FIND OUT HOW TO GET IN TOUCH WITH HIM AND HAD TO LUCK, I LOST TOUCH WITH HIM AND I NEED TO FIND HIM ON A IMPORTANT FAMILYAshhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08256951025585113820noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3567226.post-934035912003-04-28T11:26:00.000-04:002003-04-28T11:26:54.890-04:00murder, she wrote
quite a cast on it today, too. levar burton, hoss from bonanza, christopher reeve, some tough black guy who i know but can't remember his name but he reminds me of ving rhames...
yeah. thought you all should know. *nods* *and whimpers at the things that veggie pizza is making her stomach do* *and goes to work*Ashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08256951025585113820noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3567226.post-934012692003-04-28T10:46:00.000-04:002003-04-28T10:46:16.436-04:00nearly ten-twenty am
and i'm just getting up. i love working afternoons.
woke up feeling like shit physically, and quite a bit like crap emotionally. this was around six forty-five. laid in bed, watching the boy, trying not to cough my lungs out and wake him up, but eventually did. he's so sweet to me. first thing he says is, "hey, beautiful", and i know full well i cannot be beautiful, withAshhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08256951025585113820noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3567226.post-933375112003-04-27T07:53:00.000-04:002003-04-27T07:53:49.266-04:00little sumpin'...
"When I hear somebody sigh, 'Life is hard,' I am always tempted to ask, 'Compared to what?'" - Sydney J. HarrisAshhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08256951025585113820noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3567226.post-933206822003-04-26T21:30:00.000-04:002003-04-26T21:30:55.093-04:00faith is so cool
in the episode where she drugs angel, wes equips her with an m-16 bayonette knife. *nods lots* very cool. *wants one, now* and, ya know, angelus is way sexy and fun. *nods so much* *loves certain characters forever*Ashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08256951025585113820noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3567226.post-933189842003-04-26T20:42:00.000-04:002003-04-26T20:42:31.026-04:00she took four pounds of herione and just fainted
yes, it's an mst3k day.
um. slept 'til noon. got up, got dressed, went to the bretheren church, and finally got myself baptised. *smiles prettily* the water was wet. like, superwet water. *got out and was like, dude, that was wet!* tobey got baptised, too, and she totally agreed. we think it's 'cause it was sacred water. okay, it wasn't sacredAshhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08256951025585113820noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3567226.post-932511222003-04-25T13:35:00.000-04:002003-04-25T13:35:21.163-04:00one moment of energy
*belts out*
when the gunsmoke settles we'll sing a victory tune
and we'll all meet back at the local saloon
and we'll raise up our glasses against evil forces
singin' whiskey for my men and beer for my horses
*clears her throat and settles* okay. that was it. i'm drained now. *nope, isn't at work* jack called in before i got up, telling people i couldn't come. *Ashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08256951025585113820noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3567226.post-932083682003-04-24T20:03:00.000-04:002003-04-24T20:03:21.806-04:00come sit with me
and satan, too
he's your friend and mine...
guess who has a fever? yep, me. *whimpers, tugs on socks, and curls up in bed again*Ashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08256951025585113820noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3567226.post-932011172003-04-24T17:34:00.000-04:002003-04-24T17:36:27.000-04:00*sniffles*
so. grr. growl. ech. that is the last time i do anything nice for anyone. or arrive early to work. bah. i found out yesterday they were taking the kids to the park in town today, and they wouldn't be back until 1:15 or so. i was pumped and all, 'cause, ya know, i'd have an hour of good'n'quiet, right?
first up, the st. pierres was way quiet. caleb was the only one there, and he's Ashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08256951025585113820noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3567226.post-931098942003-04-23T09:18:00.000-04:002003-04-23T09:18:52.953-04:00all right, already!
*makes faces at the new york songlines guy* thanks for wanting to be included on nycfacts so badly, but, ya know, haven't updated in over a fucking year! *is desperately trying to get things settled down so she can build up victoriannyc, but...yeah...* *grrs and pokes him* yes, i'm lazy and a slacker, i'm sorry! don't entitle your email "a modest proposal." geez. *feels bad Ashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08256951025585113820noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3567226.post-930501232003-04-22T11:16:00.000-04:002003-04-22T11:16:52.090-04:00ally, amber, juliet and michelle look so pretty!
pics from the buffy wrap party
i like how jack is very adamant about the hottest girls on buffy are as follows: faith, willow and tara. *nods* *pats him* and james...hmm. he always needs to be spike. yes. that. and ooh, eliza on her new show. set in nyc. where she belongs, dammit, eh, daph? *grins for that*Ashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08256951025585113820noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3567226.post-929770042003-04-21T07:27:00.000-04:002003-04-21T07:27:35.450-04:00*whines*
power outage last night. until, like, five this morning. bah. sorry, y'all. *hugs everyone she was talking to and dashes off to get ready for the hellchildren*Ashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08256951025585113820noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3567226.post-929569442003-04-20T21:52:00.000-04:002003-04-20T21:52:24.326-04:00i have a headache
grr. *whimpers and tries to feel better*
did the Easter thing. sunrise service in the cemetary, followed by community breakfast, followed by the celebration service at church. it was quite nice, actually. *nods* then went over to the in-laws' and had lunch, then the boy and i randomly decided to drive by our new house, which led us eventually into boardman, where we randomlyAshhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08256951025585113820noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3567226.post-929132822003-04-19T22:23:00.000-04:002003-04-19T22:23:56.483-04:00okay, i'm depressed.
not really, but on my way. or i was gonna be more on my way, if i kept on watching the dove awards. *just groans* so a few years ago they totally banned sixpence from the awards because the band didn't have "Jesus" on it once. *shakes her head* i guess this was like, their first year back, and of course they win modern rock song 'cause matt slocum and leigh nash are awesome Ashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08256951025585113820noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3567226.post-929038192003-04-19T17:26:00.000-04:002003-04-19T17:26:55.746-04:00love jack:
"honey? we have way a lot a' crap."
told him we'd need the four weeks to pack!Ashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08256951025585113820noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3567226.post-928936342003-04-19T12:45:00.000-04:002003-04-19T12:45:55.623-04:00my next computer
in case anyone's interested. should have it by the time we move in. *nods* the plan is that melissa's moving in with us for either the summer or the year (she already has her own room guaranteed, whether or not she moves in officially) which is utterly awesome, 'cause she'd earn her keep by doing a bulk of the cooking, cleaning, and random errand-running. and i'm gonna need it Ashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08256951025585113820noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3567226.post-928815932003-04-19T05:34:00.000-04:002003-04-19T05:34:07.373-04:00*is so pissed at match* bitch. bitch. and daph, too. bitch. you guys suck. like i needed another something to like. shit. *quirks a grin and does hug both, as she's just playing* Ashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08256951025585113820noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3567226.post-928774682003-04-19T02:36:00.000-04:002003-04-19T02:36:07.373-04:00*just hugs daph and match and daze* wonderful, lovely people.Ashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08256951025585113820noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3567226.post-928767572003-04-19T02:12:00.000-04:002003-04-19T02:12:17.513-04:00*and is gonna have the fucking flu in about a week, just watch* fuck me. just...fuck.Ashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08256951025585113820noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3567226.post-928766952003-04-19T02:10:00.000-04:002003-04-19T02:10:16.640-04:00*just sits the fuck down and cries* bad fucking day. *is so fucking exhausted and pissed at herself* shit. shit.Ashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08256951025585113820noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3567226.post-926878202003-04-15T22:03:00.000-04:002003-04-15T22:09:31.000-04:00egads
i'm not gonna be able to watch 24 next week, man. fuck. shoot. too intense. *just sits down 'n' cries* eesh.
but ooh, hey, nathan fillion. *pets captain mal* i love that guy. and i loved the faith/spike stuff. so much. they're too perfect, man. and, um, as for zoe/gina torres on angel? it's about a week belated, but ew! *was so grossed out, man* *loves, her, though, and can't wait for Ashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08256951025585113820noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3567226.post-926612312003-04-15T13:24:00.000-04:002003-04-15T13:24:55.890-04:00i won!
you know how yesterday just like, was so unglued and generally unfun? well. it got better during the night, and today made up for it royally.
went to work feeling like shit's shit, but i'm way glad i did. around eleven, the guy i interviewed with last week called, asking if i was still available. *was like, "hell, yes!"* i set my own hours there, and it's only three days a week, and..Ashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08256951025585113820noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3567226.post-926081592003-04-14T17:46:00.000-04:002003-04-14T17:46:02.356-04:00*knows her body that well*
yay. just pms. at least i know why i'll be in pain the next three days
you ever have one of those days where nothing is written in the stars for you? you're actually motivated to do shit, so you go and do it, but you get shot down or things just don't work out? that's my day. *is so...blahhhhhh* *shakes her head and tries to find something to distract her from her Ashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08256951025585113820noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3567226.post-926066412003-04-14T17:17:00.000-04:002003-04-14T17:17:56.340-04:00*is just....ugh!* *shakes her head and goes to cry for no apparent reason* *hopes this is pms and not, like, real sadness* *has very few things to be sad about!*Ashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08256951025585113820noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3567226.post-924887612003-04-12T12:20:00.000-04:002003-04-12T12:21:25.000-04:00my husband...
*just snickers* so i'm cataloging all our books as i pack them. i take a bunch off the shelf, then insert title, author, subjects one, two, and three, publication dates, and whose book it belongs to into a Works database. the last book i indexed was jack's, entitled, how to be a selfish pig. *laughs and pats him, then goes to work more...put tackles jason wade in the process*Ashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08256951025585113820noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3567226.post-924840862003-04-12T10:09:00.000-04:002003-04-12T10:09:09.263-04:00*hms*
*bops along to jo davidson* you know our family room? the one with the grasscloth walls? i've been thinking, and perusing pearl river. i'm thinking an asian theme would kick ass. something light, not too overwhelming or anything, but with things like this, this, these and these placed strategically. maybe a chinese character hung over an entrance or the mantle...
if asked, "are you Ashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08256951025585113820noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3567226.post-924831962003-04-12T09:41:00.000-04:002003-04-12T09:41:07.123-04:00why's it so coooooold?
*pouts at coldness* at least it's pretty otherwise. *pats the birds that're chirpin'*
massive bitching ahead, be warned
okay. lotsa catching up to do. thursday i went into work, cornered kym, and asked her if it was true that she was leaving. she said yes, it was, and that originally yesterday (well, she said tomorrow, which would be friday, which would now be Ashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08256951025585113820noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3567226.post-924681912003-04-12T00:17:00.000-04:002003-04-12T08:17:09.000-04:00---Body---
1. What do you most like about your body? - Erm. Depends on the day. Complexion sometimes. Eyes others. Lips, though...yeah. I love my lips!
2. And least? - Eh. Thinness of hair. I have ultra thin, fine hair. *nods*
3. How many fillings do you have? - I don't even remember. I lost count. No, really. I did.
4. Do you think you're good looking? - Ain't no J-Lo, but I could Ashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08256951025585113820noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3567226.post-924588122003-04-11T20:18:00.000-04:002003-04-11T20:18:04.513-04:00yeah, well, it amused me.
freebies. a bird. get it?
Ashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08256951025585113820noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3567226.post-923126722003-04-09T16:27:00.000-04:002003-04-09T16:27:24.826-04:00*just shakes her head*
heard today (via the rumor mill; read: cheryl) that kym is leaving soon and camille is taking over kym's administrator position.
very. bad. news.
kym's the one person who keeps things running smoothly there. she left at eight this morning, so tonya was in charge, and i went up after snack and what did i see? tonya, and about half the toddlers, running around with noAshhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08256951025585113820noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3567226.post-921922802003-04-07T22:34:00.000-04:002003-04-07T22:34:39.483-04:00my brother the hero?
from an email from my mom:
I forgot to tell you that Mark is flying between Ramstein Air Base and Iraq and Afghanistan. I suppose he is flying some of the injured and deceased soldiers as well as supplies, etc. Mary wondered if it was Mark who flew the rescued POW to Germany---it was a C-17 that she was flown out in.Ashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08256951025585113820noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3567226.post-921607352003-04-07T13:28:00.000-04:002003-04-07T13:29:12.000-04:00gonna have a party like it's ya' birthday...
WE CLOSED ON THE HOUSE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It's OURS! YESYESYESYESYES!Ashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08256951025585113820noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3567226.post-920881482003-04-06T09:42:00.000-04:002003-04-06T09:42:57.420-04:00dosh garnit.
can't find my damn keys. been looking for them for half an hour. *is ten minutes late to chuuuuuurch* dangit. *sighs and goes to clean house instead* *and looked so cute, and was having such a good hair day!* although i was blessed and had an incredible hair week...Ashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08256951025585113820noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3567226.post-920533882003-04-05T14:59:00.000-05:002003-04-05T15:01:12.000-05:00yeah, 'cause after the nuclear holocaust, there's gonna be a lot of weird people who growl
more entertainment from my husband, who was watching mad max. *pats him*
i'm so fucking unmotivated today. i'm just dead. *is actually paying melissa bounty for bringing back books from the library* i'm that pathetically unmotivated. i figure fifty cents a head...erm...book, plus overhead for driving Ashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08256951025585113820noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3567226.post-920218202003-04-04T23:02:00.000-05:002003-04-04T23:02:42.340-05:00if i could tuuuuuuurnnnn back tiiiiime
*coughs* just wanted to say damn. when i'm forty, i wanna look as good as jodie foster does. she's not fake, and not too much. just really healthy and real, you know? hell, i wanna look like that now.Ashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08256951025585113820noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3567226.post-920181422003-04-04T21:30:00.000-05:002003-04-04T21:30:51.920-05:00it was a dark and stormy night...
my husband was off at rehearsal, and i'd decided to be unproductive and watch a movie and eat a burger. it was a bad choice, really, considering we're supposed to close on our dream home in three days, and the movie i'd nabbed was panic room...all of it hitting close to home. these people move into a magnificent, old upper west side brownstone...unused to all Ashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08256951025585113820noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3567226.post-918673762003-04-02T16:18:00.000-05:002003-04-02T16:18:04.200-05:00heheheheheheh
i rule!
kym called like, five minutes ago to ask me if it'd be better to do our in-house training on saturday from 10-12, and i was like, ehh...i'd rather do it tonight. *gets it in her head to do something and builds herself up for it, so, ya know, hates not going through with it* i'd rather get it over with, and cheryl could only do it tonight, and we had plans to pass notes Ashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08256951025585113820noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3567226.post-918583812003-04-02T13:36:00.000-05:002003-04-02T13:36:27.780-05:00ooh.
and kym said jaden's parents came in yesterday and said that at dinner monday night, they said grace and jaden stood up, put his hand over his heart, and started reciting the pledge of allegiance. *taught him that!* *beams at herself* *does a little 'i kick ass no matter what my bosses say' dance*Ashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08256951025585113820noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3567226.post-918582952003-04-02T13:34:00.000-05:002003-04-02T13:34:59.810-05:00*coughs*
so talynt grabs my hand before we go to class and starts dancing around me, singing, "go shorty, it's your birthday..."
*snickered so much*
four. new. kids. this afternoon. ceejay and curzae. her name is curzae. and you know what she asked to be called? you're gonna love this. "fat-fat". she got mad at me when i called her her name, and said, "no! it's fat-fat!"
which reallyAshhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08256951025585113820noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3567226.post-918369202003-04-02T06:29:00.000-05:002003-04-02T06:29:29.483-05:00feeling quite a bit better this morning
not physically so much as emotionally, but i'd rather have full emotional health than physical any day, you know? *hugs everyone who sent love'n'hugs* y'all are awesome.
it's funny exactly how much good prayer can do, though, you know? after i went off, i kissed jack, changed clothes, and nabbed my tissue box, 'cause i'm still pretty conjested. crashedAshhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08256951025585113820noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3567226.post-918148322003-04-01T22:11:00.000-05:002003-04-01T22:11:52.576-05:00*is so stressed*
just...fuck. *hugs everyone and goes off to have a good little bawl* *isn't upset with anyone, just so everyone knows* Ashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08256951025585113820noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3567226.post-917993402003-04-01T17:37:00.000-05:002003-04-01T17:37:10.280-05:00from reenhead.com
human shields report Ashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08256951025585113820noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3567226.post-917875482003-04-01T14:17:00.000-05:002003-04-01T14:43:17.000-05:00number 32 on the list of things that amuse me way too much:
tobey maguire playing screech from saved by the bell
*pats snl*
tonya and i got our wires crossed again. kym called me at 7:30, thinking i was coming in 'til nine, when cheryl was making it in. i told her no, but that i'd offered to tonya to do so, but tonya had said, "oh, don't worry about it, i think we can handle it okay." Ashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08256951025585113820noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3567226.post-917588392003-04-01T00:35:00.000-05:002003-04-01T00:35:27.686-05:00i. am. so. effin'. hungry. *wants lasagna!* *or chicken parmagiana!* *or hell, chickennoodlecasserole!* *damn!* Ashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08256951025585113820noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3567226.post-917538512003-03-31T23:11:00.000-05:002003-04-01T00:19:58.000-05:00and i talked to mom today
mark's flying missions to iraq the next few weeks. mary had to move on-base without him. that had to suck. mom says their new house is much more up-to-date than their last one. i guess that's bound to happen when you up ranks like mark's been doing, so steadly. major kruse. how cute is that? *pauses to miss her family so, so much, and goes away*Ashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08256951025585113820noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3567226.post-917490482003-03-31T22:00:00.000-05:002003-03-31T22:00:24.903-05:00jack just showed me this:eBay item 2166896783 (Ends Mar-31-03 19:00:00 PST ) - MINT SEARS 1942 HOLSTER COLT 1911
read the description. *pats people who live in the past*Ashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08256951025585113820noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3567226.post-917477852003-03-31T21:41:00.000-05:002003-03-31T21:41:19.903-05:00bahmultichat
*kicks it hard*
ended up almost passing out at work today. you don't know how many throat muscles it takes to say "essence" until you don't have use of those muscles anymore. cheryl came in and was joking about how i needed tomorrow off, and she'd cover for me, and i was like, "no, seriously, please do." so that's the plan. got it cleared with tonya, too. yaythat.
went to theAshhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08256951025585113820noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3567226.post-916245272003-03-29T19:04:00.000-05:002003-03-29T19:04:39.436-05:00it has come to my attention
that there are a fucking lot of very cool people in this world. very talented, very intelligent, very creative, very wonderful.
i hear enough of "people suck" "i hate the world" and "i'd be happier a hermit." i've said enough of such things. i've griped and complained and bitched about people way too much.
really, a massive part of the human race does not Ashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08256951025585113820noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3567226.post-916202742003-03-29T17:09:00.000-05:002003-03-29T17:09:47.483-05:00today
had hannah (she's looking so pretty, man, i wanna look like hannah! pre-wedding glow, i guess, eh?), lissa, kevin and kimmy over for breakfast this morning. it was awesome. love my friends. kevin and kimmy arrived later than expected 'cause they stopped to get me a get well card. ain't that sweet? *loves 'em* i needed that. *felt really worthless last night, man*
daniel, jack's best Ashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08256951025585113820noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3567226.post-915938462003-03-29T03:06:00.000-05:002003-03-29T03:06:22.763-05:00The Village Voice: Nation: Nat Hentoff: Why I Didn't March This Time by Nat HentoffAshhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08256951025585113820noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3567226.post-915822592003-03-28T22:05:00.000-05:002003-03-28T22:05:15.996-05:00*is running a low grade fever now* yep. that's me. fevergirl. bah.Ashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08256951025585113820noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3567226.post-915736672003-03-28T18:29:00.000-05:002003-03-28T18:29:08.216-05:00the friday five
1. What was your most memorable moment from the last week? Mi'keysha and the crying spell, then her mom coming to talk to me. *whines*
2. What one person touched your life this week? Kysha, for being sweet and taking The Evil Child from me, and offering to have her the next day. And Zhane saying I was "really pretty" on Tuesday. *nods* Oh, and the sweet, cute card Monica sent,Ashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08256951025585113820noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3567226.post-914871402003-03-27T11:26:00.000-05:002003-03-27T11:26:04.826-05:00got an email from mom that simply said:
I love you.
Mom
she's so good. *hugs her so much* the er with gabe damon's coming up in ten-fourteen episodes. gonna do my damndest to tape it. the guy doesn't look hotter than he did there. *growls* and now, i retreat to bed.Ashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08256951025585113820noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3567226.post-914595162003-03-26T23:56:00.000-05:002003-03-26T23:56:58.123-05:00nabbed from crashie
Which Recurring Kevin Smith Character Are You? Take the test here Ashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08256951025585113820noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3567226.post-914264982003-03-26T13:51:00.000-05:002003-03-26T13:51:37.500-05:00anyone want a scratchy throat?
and a completely raspy voice? how 'bout nasty sinus pressure? or ooh, toxic-colored sinus drainage?
nope, didn't think so.
upside is i don't feel queasy. *isn't sure if the new problem's 'cause of rain yesterday or allergies*
today was much better, even though i was gypped some good sleepin' hours and dreamt about scary islamic people overrunning the Ashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08256951025585113820noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3567226.post-913989732003-03-26T02:42:00.000-05:002003-03-26T02:42:16.280-05:00bleh.been awake for an hour. no where near sleep. i don't know why. way queasy. too much nv stuff on my mind, i think. work stuff, too. gonna try to lull myself to sleepiness. we'll see what happens.Ashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08256951025585113820noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3567226.post-913867672003-03-25T22:15:00.000-05:002003-03-25T22:15:24.543-05:00jack quote of the day:
"jack bauer is kind of like israel. you always want to be on their side, because you know they're going to come out squeaky clean."
i love my boy.
okay, um. first up, spike. jack made a very good, concise statement about him today. and he's not a spike fan, so it was cool for him to say it. it's what i've been thinking all along, and i know a lot of other buffy Ashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08256951025585113820noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3567226.post-913787832003-03-25T19:39:00.000-05:002003-03-25T19:39:45.530-05:00we're wasting as much energy as ricky martin's girlfriend
new buffy and 24 tonight. talked to jack about work. he told me to start looking for a new job, that it was okay. *still wants to wait this one out* mostly because of my new found friend, really. and i like kym and kysha. but it was awesome that he wants me to not be miserable, even in the midst of all that's going on with us with buying Ashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08256951025585113820noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3567226.post-913610482003-03-25T14:07:00.000-05:002003-03-25T14:07:44.890-05:00today, i figured out a definition to the term "bad day"
well, "bad day" in my work life, at least.
bad day: adj. and n. when, by snacktime, you are in tears because one child under the age of three (who responds to the name mi'keysha) managed to completely unnerve and throw you.
my other kids were great. they were fucking wonderful, really. but i had to keep walking out of the room, Ashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08256951025585113820noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3567226.post-913011822003-03-24T16:11:00.000-05:002003-03-24T16:11:47.373-05:00also...
made lots of leeway on my story basics today. *nods* and got very mildly roasted. *loves that feeling* i wanna write for free now, though. *nods* she has a lot going on. a lot to say and do, i think.
and special hugs to meg, daze, cats and kayla. *nods so much* just 'cause of recent things y'all've said to me, or relayed to me. i totally appreciate your love and support. you guys Ashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08256951025585113820noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3567226.post-912959382003-03-24T14:41:00.000-05:002003-03-24T14:41:00.483-05:00erm. why do we have three jars of salsa in our cupboard? *wrinkles her nose* we don't eat chips that much. hardly at all, even. *is amused* three. just sitting there, clumped together, having a meeting. yes. *runs back outside* Ashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08256951025585113820noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3567226.post-912941052003-03-24T14:04:00.000-05:002003-03-24T14:04:41.826-05:00i love adam duritz
*still has the hugest crush on the guy* mmmmmadamduritz.
work wasn't bad. i started feeling better at around 9:30. *was seriously thinking about ditching before that, though* but tonya was only in for a few minutes, and kym left kysha, danny and myself with the kids when she went to do the week's shopping.*was like, bah!* so i really didn't have a choice but to stick it outAshhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08256951025585113820noreply@blogger.com